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Sucker.......

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Somedays I feel like I must have SUCKER tattooed on my forehead...or perhaps on a sign on my back.  Learning to stand up for myself is not something that has come easily to me.  I tend to avoid conflict and want to create peace in any situation.  Sometimes this has served me well....never had many fights, I can get along with most people.  When I was young people would say I was sweet and back then I hated that description, I wanted something with more power...funny, determined, smart, strong....but sweet always felt weak and powerless.  I have always been an optimist and often have the rose colored glasses.  I have always felt like we can take on anything and I grew to love that about myself as I grew.  I started to see sweet as powerful, because I saw sweet and caring can often bring about powerful change and much more then strength and attitude.  I saw my family blossom and grow in part because of those rose colored glasses.  Had I been lo...

Having time and taking time

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The new me? So one thing that I looked forward to when my kids were little was having time to myself...usually to get some things done.  However, I have found that now that they are older and some have moved out I have plenty of time but I have forgotten how to take time.  Things in life haven't necessarily gotten easier but different.  When the kids were little my days were filled with making food, cleaning messes and staying on top of what type of shenanigan's they were getting into at any moment. During those time I worried that I wasn't enjoying the time with them, or was wishing away days or stages.  I used to think what will it be like when I can get caught up on the laundry or when I don't have to figure out what is for dinner again.  Now that mine are older we have many nights where all the kids are out and its just Grandy and I.  I forgot how to cook for two so we either have way too much food or we order in.  There is a relaxing aspect to it,...