Letting the enemy in

Sometimes in life he slips in quietly, stealthy.  I never see it coming. A little apathy, a little less quiet, a little more reminiscing on darker times... then the doubts slowly creep in, the feelings start to slide and the emotions take over, the truth grows quieter and quieter.  The faith begins to waiver and the seeking slows.  A loneliness shadows my heart and like bedtime story starts to lull me into a stillness.

Then like a mother waking a drowsy infant I begin to sense an SOS, a life line pulling me back.  It begins with a stirring in my heart and longing in my soul.  A recognition of truth and familiar tug of love back to where my heart belongs, reminding me of the masterpiece I am in the hands of He who has made me.  The volume of my heart begins to rise and my mind begins to clear until I am back where I am and I realize he has crept in and deceived me but He who is greater has got me in his hands.

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  1. Paul CSeptember 15, 2021 at 4:10 PM

    You need to write a book. I am serious! Pray about it. God has given you a special talent, please use it for His glory,

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