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That's Why I Trust Him

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Yesterday  I was singing a song at church that touched my soul, the verse said, "I sought the Lord and he heard and he answered.... that's why I trust him"  For the last 5 or more years I have had to deal with a lot of soul searching within my own faith.  I haven't once lost the love for God or doubted his existence, but I have questioned things that I have heard from the community of believers, pastors, social media, family, friends and most importantly personal experiences.  I find the best way to explain it is biblical, it is all nonsense....we cannot fathom the ways of an all mighty omnipresent God in the same way a 2 year old cannot comprehend the mind of an adult.  I have learned a lot about myself and my walk and my life.  I have clearly seen and experienced what it is to live without God's presence in my life and when he transformed me, I have lived in a marriage where I have seen a husband live without the presence of God in his life and then a tra...

Church, State and Chains

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We must be careful when we start to combine church and state.  There was good reason why it was separated and we are already seeing problems as its being reunited. As Christians we are told to go and make disciples.  We for many decades have gone as missionaries to foreign lands to spread the good news.  We are called to love God and to love one another.  Over the years, churches, hospitals schools and orphanages were built to serve others.  The gospel message of one of truth and love.  Mercy and grace were the hallmarks of Jesus' ministry. Government was best described to me by one of my college professors back in the day as simple as it is the organization that ends up taking care of the problems that overwhelmed the current operating systems.  For example, when we don't have private organizations to freely take care of our sick, the government created a healthcare program, when the private organizations were unable to house the poor or care for the ...

"Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that" MLK

 Anyone who knows me knows that I do not support the current government.  However, when I have thought and prayed this quote from Martin Luther King Jr comes to mind.  I cannot change the circumstances in and of myself.  I am not a politician, I do now have the loudest voice in the room or the most money in the bank.  I am a mom to a multiracial family, I am a tutor to sweet kids from all over the world, I am a Christian woman who doesn't fit the stereotype of the southern Christian woman.  Plus at this point in our world, what would it all accomplish, its always like a pendulum swinging wider and wider year after year separating sides and people and families hating what the other sides stands for or tolerates.  No I am tired and I want off of that.   My heart is my superpower, I can love.  I can love on those who feel lost, forgotten, scared, ashamed, tired.....  I can show love in a smile to child who for a moment feels safe, I ca...

Christmastime is Here

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I must say this is my favorite time of year.  I have loved Christmas my whole life.  No matter the situation it brought a smile to my heart.  As a kid I loved singing Christmas carols and I would dance around with my dolls pretending to be Mary.  I loved every aspect of Santa, up at 4am sneaking out to peek.  I actually was a firm believer until I was 12 and it was Christmas Eve and I had an older sister who spilled the beans....thanks Jen :)  As a teenager my focus became finding gifts for the friends or boyfriend, midnight mass if I could stay up that late, I am NOT a night person.  Watching all my siblings unwrap presents with me and as I got older the excitement of the older siblings coming home to visit.  Big family meals, we were Italian, putting on our fancy clothes to visit relatives.  Then it turned into a very pregnant Christmas in 1997, as my first born was almost here, a quiet year where I was on bed rest only weeks after almost d...

Stop blaming the girls....lets hear it for the boys.....

HOW ABOUT THEM BOYS???? Since this has become a woman's issue on the left and and abortion issue on the right, lets pause for a moment and consider something.  That girl that needed or wanted an abortion did not get pregnant because she was gay. She didn't have an immaculate conception, most likely...she was with a boy.... This idea that these are women's issues are insane. It takes two to make a baby. SOOO what about these boys, again I have raised boys and girls so I get it...  Boys especially teenage and young me like girls, like a lot, but they also usually are not as into the whole committed relationship idea.  Ask a teenage girl and she will tell you about how she wants a committed relationship, wedding plans....etc .... Ask a teenage boy and he will likely not quite be as excited about that idea.  Usually its more about sports gaming and yes...sex. So since we all want strong men of character, lets dig in...How many sermons, books... are all in on men and sexu...

It has been awhile....

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 I haven't blogged in a long time, life got busy and changed.  No more school kids anymore as all are adulting.  Doubled the grandkids with much delight.  Made our first visit to Hawaii!  It was a beautiful adventure with my favorite guy!  Now we are about to visit Europe with stops in London and Paris to take in the Christmas lights and atmosphere! So you could say this second part of life as Milly and Grandy is starting off pretty .... well Grand! With growing older and life changing it has given me greater perspective. With each stage of life we gain or lose perspective.  What I have learned is perspective comes with experience and loss of perspective always comes from lack of experience.  Therefore I always feel like it is important to speak myself only of the things in which I have experienced.  For example as we are about to embark on a trip to a city we have never been it would be foolish for me to say it will be like this....because w...

A Different Take on Student Loan Forgiveness

Just some thoughts after seeing so many opinions on the student debt relief.   First, (disclosure) I will benefit from this...why?  Why didn't I work "hard enough" to pay off my student loans.  Being a person who got pregnant in college and choose to carry and raise my daughter and then marry her father keeping our family together I needed financial assitance with the idea that once I graduated I could work as a teacher. My husband working hard at an entry level IT job to provide for us. Both his mother and my mother passed away over the next few years and my mother had told me she really wanted me to finish my education and I honored that.  I started college in 1996 and it would take me until 2010 to actually finish that degree.  During this time we were led to adopt and instead of the 1 newborn we had planned on we ended up adopting 5 children because of our refusal to break up sibling groups, and our willingness to adopt older chldren.  I put my deg...